I know it has been truly long. I went away before and later return, but this time I believed I need to explain why I disappear so abruptly and how is that Im returning now. For this, I feel that I need to explain a lot not only on my SL, but from my own RL. It was a mix of lack of internet, computer and time.

It started one day when my internet went away. I didnt pay that month because I was moving to another house but I believe it was going to take longer to the cable company to notice (I know, wasnt a smart move). I completely lost the connection from one day to another.

Finally, almost 15 days later we finally landed on the new house, me and my grandma (yes, I live with her no, they arent always as lovely as you imagine, dam Disneys clichs) anyway. Besides, she rise me since I was five, and she has a lot of patient with me especially considering she had for adoptive daughter the most distracted girl of all Durango. But between unpack, placing the things, paying and attending to college and go to work I didnt have much time or money. The good part is that the reason to move was because one of my aunts found a cheap house (at least cheaper than my old one, rental sucks) near hers and she had the idea that it would be nice that we became neighbors. My grandmother had health troubles past year and she wasnt truly well on the last months and it was better if she had more eyes (and hands) around.

Internet and a little more time came, but I still had one big obligation: the 132. Let me explain detailed it, starting with some history. Once upon a time, on Mexico.

Yo Soy 132 is an ongoing Mexican protest movement centered around the democratization of the country and its media. It began as opposition to the Institutional Revolutionary Party (PRI) candidate Enrique Pea Nieto and the Mexican media's allegedly biased coverage of the 2012 general election. The name Yo Soy 132, Spanish for "I Am 132", originated in an expression of solidarity with the protest's initiators.

There were violent days and dark times, especially after elections. PRI, one of the parties, and now the leading one, is the symbol of yeas of corruption, tyranny, political murdering, massacres, drug dealers and financial decadency. For example, this little jewel knew as the dog:

Defender el peso como un perro! "I will defend the peso like a dog!" It earned him the nickname 'El perro' (The dog) and having people barking at him. 1981.

Vamos a administrar la abundancia! "We are going to manage abundance!"

How did he manage the abundance? With high charges and houses to family and friends, new business and insanely big mansions.

His obituary in the New York Times referred to his well publicized generosity toward his one time mistress, Rosa Luz Alegra as "a symbol of the era's political decadence". He bought her a US$2 million mansion in Acapulco.

Wikipedia again.

The Institutional Revolutionary Party (Spanish: Partido Revolucionario Institucional, PRI) is a Mexican political party that held power in the countryunder a succession of namesfor 71 years. Violence, murdering, crisis, those who lived It still have the memories of it. Other example is the massacre of Tlatelolco.

The improvement of the economy had a disparate impact in different social sectors and discontent started growing within the low classes. In 1968 Mexico City became the first city in the Spanish speaking world to be chosen to host an Olympic Games. Using the international focus on the country, students at the National Mexican Autonomous University (UNAM) protested the lack of democracy and social justice. President Gustavo Daz Ordaz (19641970) ordered the army to occupy the university to suppress the revolt and minimize the disruption of the Olympic Games. On October 2, 1968 student groups demanding the withdrawal of the IPN protested at the Plaza de las Tres Culturas. Unaccustomed to this type of protests, the Mexican Government made an unusual move by asking the United States for assistance, through LITEMPO, a spy-program to inform the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA) of the US to obtain information from Mexico. The CIA responded by sending military radios, weapons and ammunition. The LITEMPO had previously provided the Daz Ordaz government with 1,000 rounds of .223 Remington ammunition in 1963. During the protests shots were fired and a number of students died (officially 39, although hundreds are claimed) and hundreds were arrested. The President of the Olympic Committee then declared that the protests were against the government and not the Olympics so the games proceeded.

Wikipedia.

And dont believe that with years it went better. Other example is Colosio.

Since Mexico's constitution permits presidents to remain in power for only one term, and as an extralegal rule presidents (until Salinas) handpicked their own successors (the party's first primary election in history took place in 1999), Colosio apparently enjoyed the president's favour, expressed in his famous declaration No se hagan bolas: el candidato es Colosio ("Don't get confused: Colosio is the candidate" would be an appropriate translation, literally it means "Don't entangle yourselves: Colosio is the candidate").

But later it was clear that Colosio wasnt going to be Salinas pet. He wanted, instead, to take him to justice for the corruption he held and the crisis the country was about to face. That without mention other new politics he wanted to held. He wasnt good for his planes, and one morning Mexico wake up shocked when the worst scenario came true:

At 7:12 PM, on March 23, 1994, at a campaign rally in Lomas Taurinas, a poor neighborhood of Tijuana, Baja California, Colosio was shot in the head with a .38 Special a distance of a few centimeters in front of a person recording video nearby.

And guess who was Salinass new favorite candidate?

In 1994, for the first time since the revolution, a presidential candidate was murdered, Luis Donaldo Colosio Murrieta. His campaign director, Ernesto Zedillo Ponce de Leon, was subsequently elected in the first presidential election monitored by international observers.

Wikipedia.

In 1990 Peruvian writer Mario Vargas Llosa called the government under the PRI as la dictadura perfecta ("the perfect dictatorship"). The 1994 economic crisis in Mexico caused the PRI to lose its absolute majority in both chambers of the federal congress for the first time in 1997.On 2000 other party, however, managed to take control, and we believed the time of the old PRI finally faded. But we were wrong. On 2005, one man started to appear every day on the news and media, with all of his good government and all the things he did for his state. His name: Pea Nieto.

The Televisa controversy refers to a series of allegations published by the British newspaper The Guardian on June 2012 that claims Mexico's largest television network, Televisa, sold favorable coverage to top politicians in its news and entertainment shows.

You may think is not bad enough to buy the media, but he was much more than a corrupt governor. It didnt take long to discover it.

During the administration of Vicente Fox in 2002, several peasants in San Salvador Atenco, State of Mexico, resisted the government's plan to expropriate their lands to build a new international airport near the country's capital, Mexico City. Consequently, on 3 May 2006, state and federal police forces raided the San Salvador Atenco and violently took many of its dwellers into custody, unleashing a civil unrest in the area between 300 unarmed civilians and 3,000 police officers. Some law enforcement officials retaliated for the confrontations of the previous days and tried to break up a blockade of a federal highway stopping a group of flower vendors protesting against the government. The leader of the movement was sentenced to 150 years in prison, and the rest of the members were accused of alleged "organized kidnapping" of police officers and sent to supermax prisons. National and international human rights organizations demanded the release of the activists, whose sentences were turned down until August 2010. According to a report issued by Amnesty International on February 2009, the civil unrest resulted in the detention of 200 people and hundreds of allegations of abuses, including sexual violence against 26 women who were arrested; others, in addition, were allegedly tortured. In the operations, the police used firearms, tear gas and electric batons. Two young men were murdered by the Mexican Federal Police, while hundreds were arrested without warrants and beaten. A 14-year-old boy was killed too. In response to the abuse allegations, the Supreme Court of Justice of the Nation agreed to investigate the incident to establish whether the unrest was an isolated event or if it was part of a larger plot formed by politicians in the municipal and state levels.

After this the least you would expect as a victim is a public apologize. But no, he claimed that the goverment act firm and he used the public force to "restore order"... yes, nothing good can came of a president like that. By the past year, elections began and we all see most of us with horror who he was going to became president. People werent happy, and after a bad reception on the Ibero college one civil movement started against him and I became part of it.

On May 11, 2012, Pea Nieto held a campaign event at Ibero-American University. Most of the attendees questioned and strongly expressed their opposition to the candidate. Their protest was centered around the 2006 Atenco incident, in which then-governor of the State of Mexico Pea Nieto called in the state police to break up a protest by local residents. However, during the news conference, Pea Nieto defended his decision to use force in order to prevent an alleged greater evil. His answer inflamed the students, who started to chant the motto "Atenco is not forgotten".

After the event, prominent media outlets and PRI politicians dismissed the attendees' reaction, saying that they had been "smuggled in" by contending parties, and were not really students. In response, 131 students who had attended the event posted a video on YouTube showing their student IDs and expressing discontent with the media reporting of the event. When people began expressing solidarity with the students by tweeting "I'm the 132nd student", the name "yo soy 132" was coined.

I finally had the Internet but the #yosoy132 involved all my free time, especially after the elections when we were making even more protest and trying to find a way Pea didnt took the charge. He didnt won legally: buying votes and media, closing electoral polls before time, even arresting members of our movement. At the end on that last day of December he did not only take it and became president but at the same time protestants were murder and violent arrested in Mexico City. One of them, Irving, was of my town and we started to collect money to help the family to pay his defense. Thanks to god that part had a happy ending and he could get out of jail and comeback. But we had troubles even before it. Once I almost got arrested: when Pea came to my city and we made a protest. After we left we divided on different groups to leave on separate cars, and suddenly my group notices tow armed patrols following us. Fast we managed to land on a commercial centre nearby and run inside were we lose them.

The infamous visit. We tried to get in, but a big group of cops where already waiting for us and didnt let us in. Almost everyone left, trying to find other entrance, but others stayed there, trying to talk with the cops and the press that later came. If you wonder who I am, look at the girl with a silver car behind and wearing a red shirt and black and white leggings. (If you still cant find me, Im holding a book)

Unfortunately, Pea, even with all the protest, disturbs, unconformism, and people declaring on public to not recognize him as president, has the charge now. It was beyond sad, even disappointing. But I learned a lot of it. I learned of what Im capable to defend on what I believe. I made friends who share mi ideas, and I discover what is to defend your country even when it is dangerous.

And, even with it, or even because of it, life is coming better. Now things have finally turned on their place. Im at my new house, I finished the 4 ^th cuatrimester with good grades, and my grandmother is recovered. She cant walk yet, but she has learned to move with her wheelchair and with that she can move all around the house. She even can cook now! And my lap is back on home (yep, I had the power again)

I really wanted to comeback before, but between the activism, work, college, grandma and house changing, I was truly busy. And my lap to the pawn shop (yes, again thank you college) but on a very special day my grandmother gave me one big surprise: she recover it. I wrote this lines on it, and I feel truly blessed for be able to do it.

I really want to just logged in, but before I felted that I needed to write this and explain all of you why I wasnt here and how I abruptly left. I wish I still have friends here.

Coming back (and hoping to find everyone alive and well)

Aimee.